Confessions of a Gearhead’s wife

Am I the only one who feels so disconnected, so restless so uninspired?  I can’t be.  Sometimes I wonder though, I feel like I’m unhappy with everything but at the same time I’m not.  I think, this is just life, this is how it goes.  You get up, you go to work, you pay the bills, you take care of those you love…..or do you?  I wonder, who takes care of me, because I’m not sure anybody does……I think it’s me.  So some days I imagine what it would be like to just walk away and take care of only myself.  But of course that is irresponsible and selfish, so I don’t.

Still waiting to hear if Mr. Seller has found another house so that we can move forward with our plans.  We continue to pack non-essentials hoping against hope that things will work out for us. 

 The wedding plans however keep progressing.  Did a little research yesterday and found out that to rent, I did say rent, not buy a tent for the reception on the chance that the weather in our beautiful Rocky Mountains does not cooperate will cost somewhere between $750 and $1000.  That seems absurd.  Of course that does include walls because walls cost extra.  Who knew? 

I had a minor meltdown the other day.  Tried on my dress and decided it made me look fat.  I loved it when I first picked it out.  Now it makes me look fat.  I have not gained or lost any weight since I bought the think…..now it makes me look fat.

O. K. can things get any more stressful?  I’m getting married in a month.  I’m trying to buy a new house.  I’m trying to sell an old house.  The seller of the new house is trying to find a house and is having no luck at all.  We were supposed to be having our wedding at our new house.  Now I wonder if I’m going to have a new house at all.  You know if you’re not ready to sell your house you shouldn’t put it on the market.   We have been looking for a house for 2 years.  When you have as many cars as we do it’s just not that easy.   That’s why we didn’t put our house on the market until we found a house that would be suitable for us.  We found the place, made an offer, negotiated and finally our offer was accepted and we were under contract.  Only now it may all fall apart because Mr. Seller can’t find anything that works for him. 

Hello and welcome to my world.  I am the soon to be wife of a self confessed gear head.  At this very moment he owns a Dodge diesel pickup, a 1972 Chevy pickup that is in the midst of being restored, a work van, a plow truck (80 something beater truck), a sand rail, a Harley Davidson Bad Boy, a custom chopper (that he built himself), a car hauler and a motorcycle trailer.  Oh, I almost forgot a 1971 El Camino.  That would be like forgetting one of my kids.

 I myself have a Tahoe and wish that it were something much smaller.  I have 2 kids from a previous marriage, J.D (a boy) is 21 and no longer lives with us and M.E. (a girl) who is 17 and starting her senior year in high school.  I also have a Westie, Duncan that I am crazy about and will probably appear frequently in my ramblings.